New Things — Homegrown + Lovely

It's been a couple months since I've posted. That is WAY too long to go between posts, and I don't want to make excuses, but there are two reasons for this delay. The first, and funnier reason, is that we discovered the show The Blacklist. Hooked after the first episode, Matt and I had a lot of shows to catch up on. Needless to say, we were watching an episode or two most evenings after Blake went to bed. The show is amazing for those of you who haven't seen it, but we didn't get much done during that time. We are happily caught up, and can now resume normal life. Phew!

Now, on to the second reason. A little more important than The Blacklist. In the past, I've written most of these posts while on the bus to and from work. For the last two months, I've been exceptionally tired and instead of multi-tasking, I've been boarding the bus, putting on my hood, and getting some shut eye for the 45 minute ride. I may not actually sleep, but I rest for sure. It takes a lot out of you when you've got a one year old who still doesn't sleep through the night, and your body is busy creating baby number 2. Yes, you read that right - baby number 2 is on the way, set to arrive at the end of August!

Yes, we were trying, but like with Blake it happened much sooner than I thought, so these two will be a mere 19 months apart. Part of me is so excited for those newborn snuggles and to watch another babe grow, but the other part of me is terrified. Terrified of how I'll manage a toddler and a newborn. Terrified because I don't know how I could love another person as much as I love Blake. I've heard and read countless stories of other moms with the exact same fear. How will they love their second child as much as their first? But I imagine it's similar to the way you can't imagine the love you feel for your first child, until the baby actually arrives. I had no idea the love I'd feel for Blake, until she came to be with us. You can try to anticipate it, but until you see that baby, there's no way to know how big that love will be. I think that's how it will be for this baby. I know I will love him or her, and that love will be just as big as the love I feel for Blake. But until that baby is here, I can only imagine what the expansion of my heart will be like.

It's a lot to take in. The journey of a second pregnancy is a lot different than the first. There are many distractions as you care for your first child. You may not remember what size of fruit the baby is each week, or think about it non-stop, but you still hope and pray for a healthy baby. You still dream of who this person will be. I am almost 15 weeks and really looking forward to feeling those first flutters. Somedays I think I feel them, but can't quite be sure so a little more time will tell. Before I know it, we will be holding this sweet little one in our arms. I know Blake will be an amazing big sister. She will want to help and be involved with everything. I'm excited to watch that relationship grow.

In my last post I mentioned that I was going to discuss natural and organic products. I've been working on this post for a long time now. I've actually started two different posts, trying to get a better direction, but I haven't had much luck. I feel so passionate about this topic, but I think I've had trouble writing about it because I'm trying to accomplish too much at once. So I'm going to try and start a third post, and breakdown the topics so I can focus more on each subject rather than try and cram everything into one. The discussion may turn in a direction different than what I had originally planned, but that is ok. I want to bring this topic to light and it's helpful for me to continue reading and researching. Blogging is a wonderful way for me to think about and express my thoughts. For those of you who are along for the ride, I'd love to hear your thoughts and comments along the way. I love to learn and sometimes the best way, is to listen to the words of another person.